Behind A Windshield

Looking out and receiving no encounter,
The room shook inside until the walls slowly crumbled,
I stumbled on the thought of loosing you,
Like a vivid nightmare where the killer is always me, & there is nothing I can do.
I stared at the ceiling to pass time which only brought the tears to my eyes,
Because when I looked in your eyes they were inviting like home with doors open wide,
Found shelter behind your eyes until I was hopeless like a child in a house full of ghosts,
The walls came alive which swallowed me up, While I gazed out the window to find you,
The hosts in the house were only strangers to me, pretended to be my friend then stabbed my heart in the end,
Bridges can't mend if they are already burned to the ground,
So you turned your back and hung me upside down drowning in my tears,
Set me on fire then fed the flames with the fears of loosing you,
I stayed by your side and held your hand, which is now incinerated, Like all the love I had for you,
Up in flames, Looking outside,
You were inside and you left me in my own bloody mess,
Expecting me to clean the situation and sweep my heart away with all the rags of the past,
You left so fast you didn't even showed me you cared,
Just stared out the window like a crooked toothed madman with a yellow smirk on your face,
Yep you sure fooled me in the first place, What a clever one you are...
Leading me to a trap that decided my own fate, I took the bait,
While you tore every limb off then unloaded the machine gun to my chest,
I gave you my best, you left me the worst feeling,
And as I was bleeding profusely from every angle, I told you: "I love you" with a sincere smile,
Asked you if you wanted to stay a while,
Then at that moment you shot me in the head, Brains scattered like glass on the stained red grass,
Leaving me dead.

Seasons went by like days and my body slowly decayed at each rise and fall of the sun;

As my body laid there like a chopped down tree, my skin was the leaves which were falling off,
Revealing my organs and the rest of my insides that still remained,
I was still left with my sincere smile as my pink lips faded to a ghostly pale color,

The snow fell, which transformed into leaves, which transitioned to tears upon my face like the rain that descends often, But there's nothing left to do.
And now my mission is done I did all I could do,
My heart was the only thing that stayed never deceasing to stop pumping for you,

Thump! Thump! Thump!

Jumping off the ground like a bunny with springs under each foot,
Galloping at a speed of a billion horses, waiting, wishing,
For the girl I love the most to look out the window and come out,
Behind a windshield, will you stay there?
Or do you care for me? Then stay a while and talk with me....
With my dying breath I say: "I love you" again with a sincere smile.